Music Heals the Soul

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

.: ~ka ba boom!!!~ :.

~grr....grr...grr...wat's wrong with the computer!!! this morning i came in, it was still ok..my singnet account was still running fine. now i just came in, i open it, and everything is empty! inbox, outbox, sent items, "deleted" items, all empty!!! what's happening!!! grr...
~my table is still very messy. i haven't packed it yet. i dont know how to start. to be honest, it is not unreasonably messy, it's just...messy...plain messy...and it doesnt' look pleasing to the eye. i should seriously pack it... ok i resolve to clear, pack, and clean my table and shelves till they sparkle, by this weekend, which means sunday 2359.
~i am indeed very free now, with no work, as in, job, at hand...no more preparation of lessons, marking of stuff, making of ppts hmm...i am very free... have been contemplating if i should find another job. mum is rather against it, says there is only about 2 months. quite true. only another 2 months. quite hard to find a job for that time frame too. sigh. either i am too free or too busy. sigh. extremes, extremes, extremes. when can we ever strike a balance???
~sigh, sometimes i feel this burdened feeling in me, again. i just can't make a decision i deem is best. there are so many complications with every decision made, i never know which will eventually be the best bargain. to be fair, no decision is without risk. maybe i aren't much of a risk taker. i admit i aren't. but times like these just make you think, knowing you wont' get anywhere, making you feel frustrated, pent-up. ARGH!!!

waterbaby sighed at 9:59 PM